Googled on some terms which I supposed I was plagued by and it turned out...
Too demoralising.
Yeah I know it's just prelims.
Yeah I know too many mind issues distracted me.
Yeah I know I am probably still trying to convince myself ( living in self denial) that I can.
IT'S ALL IN THE MIND.
Oh and to add on.
Must you keep appearing in my life , creating a ruckus and all that nonsense without fail whenever my majors are approaching.
Forever and always.
I will be a stronger person who will be in control of my emotions.
God, please see me through this.