Easier said than done, honestly. Been there, done that.
Been in it nearly half her life, yup.
Stuck in the ' insecure quicksand ' , not to forget social issues.
Entering Secondary School, she made a mental note, to forget the past
Screw this feeling, she kept telling herself to fight on, not to retreat, but some things made it so hard.
After the abrupt halt to her lukewarm relationship last year, she was saved by grace, into her destiny.
For once in her life, she felt really really included. It may sound superficial but it's not.
Then came the dream of rising up.
Though she faced parental objection and hectic schedules, she fought on.
Daunting as it may seem, she put in her all to love people, as many others mocked and judged.
She integrated, tried kicking her bad habits, being conscious of what she tweeted , painfully and slowly reducing her texts from 8k till present 651.
Along the way, somehow, she knew something was wrong. It's not going the way she wanted it to be.
There was escalating tensions and rising hostilities between some people and her.
She struggled desperately to get out of it, but the situation was worsened when they did what she hated the most.
They left her out.
She broke down when she was alone, and at times, running back to her one and only Refuge.
No one seemed to understand, she did not dare share, for fear of worsening relations.
Can you really blame her for sinning, indulging in guilty pleasures this year?
For once in her life, she was treasured and wanted so badly.
Yes you can, because she blames herself.
There's so many thoughts racing inside her mind.
She can't even differentiate a right from a wrong now, some may say.
She closes her eyes, and pray.