THINGS WILL GET BETTER

Moved

http://midnightcoaster.blogspot.com

A new website welcomes new viewership and I truly want to create happy memories there :)

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To be honest I'm not entirely sure what to type here.
Wanted to blog in my new blog domain ( midnightcoaster.blogspot.com)
but does not want to end up feeling emotional and everything yet again

This feeling is just..

R thinks that I have a strong negative vibe.
Well, its time to prove everyone who presume that opinion wrong.

Challenged

No I don't get replied to when I wish people birthday on social platforms.

Not that you missed it out.

Okay I get your point.

Two invidiuals.

Never mind it's okay I'll get over this.

Inspirational

Saw this photo on Instagram and I suppose it tells it all :)

11/11

Significance of this date?

Prom stuff shouldn't even be of my concern for now :(

Aisheesh

I will and must go on this :)

Deliberate

Talked to Heidi last night
Sigh honestly i can't even be entirely sure of who will stay in my life

Reading Qiu's blog about how to become "famous" thru Nuffnang led me to think about how much I neglected my blog over the years :(

I promise to pursue blogging again after O's ( more professionally as a memory's keepsake for myself too )

/sidetrack/

Will be using A and B to denote names

Talking to A made me think of why did I make such rash decisions which eventually backfired and triggered some resentment till this day ( further aggravated by our conversation )

I have no idea what your intention are but ugh. I can't confront you neither can I run away too. :(

Talking to B made me realise that no one stays and you need to learn to do things yourself. Not to be overly emotionally reliant on anyone either. Whatever. Sounds "common sense" but sigh :(

Your words are like a dagger :(
But I shouldn't be feeling this way

There is comfort in knowing that we're near the end

Title credit to Marilyn once again :)

Managed some retail therapy today ( Visual below and snagged some pretty good deal)

Turquoise casual top, Faded Turquoise high waisted distressed shorts ^^

Cut my hair in a v long time
Merely wanted to trim

The hairdresser impressed me

First question he asked me was
" Do you mug late into the night?"
(In chinese)
After examining my scalp
Haha okay not entirely impressive
Since I'm a student but well :)

Okay then he asked me another Qn
" Do you not tidy your hair before sleeping? "
Oh my gosh it was so true
Very often, I'm too tired to comb my hair and simply fall asleep after taking out my hair band and rubber band :(

Ahaha

Pro pro.

But then again I always feel uncomfortable and slightly awkward when a male hairdresser attends to my hair :(

Tell me how am I going to survive in co ed next year :(

PS I dislike changing hairdressers but asheesh they always leave the salon after a few months

PS x2 Finally compiled my entire collection of Maths assessment books to be brought to uncle's house

Till then' :)

谁先爱,谁就输了

Ahaha I hate this Jingwen
Her words are always true yet so painful

I need to study for my sciences nowwww

Stupid HCL was a killer grrrr >:(

Oh Peanut Butter Too Nice!

Lorms questions for Q2 was answered with that acronym aforementioned above ahaha

Planning Authorities
Business
Tourists
NGOs

Yay for studying food ( selectively) and it appearing in LORMS for Q3 coupled with my fav Dev Chapter

Nevetherless, wasted too much time on Trend Qn in Q2 Le sigh

Or else I'll be subjected to Q2 and Q4 , Tourism and ( Ind + Dev )

Dev > Food > Ind anytime!
> denotes the former being the preference.

Now for HCL Papers intensive preparation
>:)

Am getting addicted to using this emoticon " >:) " and it's not an entire good sign

PS Yes I know no point looking back but personally in my humble opinion this will be an outlet where I can look back at next time and relish this memory

Ahaha weirdness overflowing past flood control levels bye! :)

PS x2 : I know spotting trends ISNT good but Wellz ;)

" May the bell curve always be in our favour "

Picturesque

Wonder when I can become such a professional photographer too

I'm so sorry for any possible wrong mistake which I may have made Le sigh :(

Honestly it doesn't feel good to simply not receive any replies at all after a gazillion were sent out

Okay whatever. I'll pull through, even without you.

Knots prayer

These feelings of insecurity ought to be eliminated ugh :(

Photo rights to Marilyn who uploaded the visuals on Instagram
To Mrs Koh who wrote the well wish for us too! :)

Period

I promise to never talk to you again

That was the last freaking straw you broke

I tried establishing relations but what did I get!??

Nothing but hurled vulgarities

Elusive

Returned to an unpleasant scene

Unsure of what to do.

Where to draw support from?

Within myself? From the already near thinning source which wasn't even exactly there in the first place?

Attention seeking
Always complaining
Not the time to dwell on these
Single and carefree
Or so they say

Money
Obtained by different attainments of education
Can be squandered away with a mere few rounds
Which could had otherwise been invested in keen interests
Generating more money in the long run
Not for self interest
But to avoid heart aching scenarios

Detest how solutions don't form
Approaching others genuinely yet backfiring

Meringue

O's not the time where you see who does better than who. It's just a matter of doing your best.

There's absolutely no need to be afraid of yourself. What for doubt your own capabilities when you can use the brainpower to do something more or just relax.

Advice from Tee sometime back.

Though she complains that I 'flaunt my vocab' hahaha zzz :/

Encouragement to all taking Os!! We are but so near to freedom and our long deserved break :)

Angles

" Your sine must be pie/2 cos you're the one "

;) aww hahaha pick up lines really crack me up

Photo below obtained from Tumblrrrr ;)

Don't let what others think of you become your reality

"From what I think, you fell in love not with God, but with the idea of being able to fall in love with God instead.

I don't know, I don't really know how to explain. But you just fell in love with the idea of being able to have God's wonderful love but you never really did fall in love with God."

236 days ago

Has anything been changed?

Time crafted out

Experiences. Do we actually seize the day?

Not studying
Procrastination takes over
Yet it's a mind game
Which I have to control the steering wheel.

Constructed loneliness is all a mind game
Usage of repetitive words may be seen as mundane
Underlying intentions

Who so you think you are

Rephrased quote.

I would like to make the assumption that you said that in the attempt to trigger the slight tinge of jealousy in me.

Nostalgic November

Redundant attempt to make use of alliteration in the topic statement

HAHAHA just joking

:( I'm so sorry I can only crack such ughhhh jokes

Here's some visuals for myself to look at next time so as to prevent the formation of an extremely wordy post

Hohoho physics is officially over
Never touching it again ( until the following week of course ) and then it's the last goodbye ;)

Am I the only one who hasn't update my IOS 5? :/

Le sigh my pink Sony Walkman phone went crazy today and it displays some distorted pictures on LHS and is somewhat not usable :(

Hopefully iPhone won't be a distraction!!! :(

Anyways I have rather nice " picture of the day " photos inside, hahaha deemed by yours truly

Teehee this feeling is really great I promise :)

Till then'

Wtp Japan came out!!!!!

To think I even woke up at 6am just for Stalin and Hitler

Physics was.. Ah well. I tried my best. Can't believe Mr CY Tan actually thought I would drop the subject until he told me he thought I would give up

Stronger than this!!

Will promise myself to maximise and fully utilise this long weekend to chiongggggg like a Crazehhh mugger hahaha whoops

Visuals : Time well spent at Pasir Ris on a Sunday afternoon with Tee

Pardon awkward angles cos Tee didn't want her fringe to be screwed >:)

PS Wanted to go for Halloween Horrors at USS yaaaaaa :/

Halfway through

Second day of killer week officially dealt with

Feeling rather thankful and relieved
Yet at the same concerned about the bell curve issue which may arise

Shall leave it all to God

Felt the presence of HS when Mr Teoh prayed for the entire cohort
It was so strong, something that I did not felt in a long time.

I can do this I can do this!!

PS I'm the only one [ ( thinking of BOA's MV haha - sorry my humor sense is bordering on awkwardness ) after asking at least 10 people ] who did NOT attempt the organic chemistry question :( :/

Tbh... Ah well.

It's over :) I trust in God, always.

Stay sane and play on

Being too nice gets people somewhere ONLY when the other party appreciates your efforts

Prompt texts/ sourcing for badge designs

Why am I so dumb

Reverse psychology

Incoherent sentences make sense if you can grasp the meaning behind the lines

Dislike it when someone ( yes even just ONE) brings my so hard to build confidence downs by telling me I'm only capable of yet another grade

HAHAHA whatever.

It's in my mind it's in my mind

Maybe he's working reverse way to trigger of my ignition to work even harder

Hahahahaha unfortunately; it doesn't work.

Or does it? Subconsciously?

What does fate have in store for me

To never check your answers after an O's paper no matter how tempting it is!!!

Vexed

Extremely annoyed to the extent that pimples are developing on my face at an exponential rate, even faster than rainforests in Kalimantan are experiencing deforestation.

A very one sided viewpoint here

Let it go huh.
Wo hui de :)

:)

Drained and burnt

I wish I could say that it is in my mind to go in for the kill

I have absolutely zero interest to do anything now

Save me

Please

IF I CAN'T BE HAPPY I MUST BE HAPPY

NTS

To NEVER allow anyone's words, especially the acid words formed based on a one time incident.
( which I apologised for already but she declined and went to disseminate to others )

To not have any slightest tinge of concern over your well being
( which is seemingly contradicted by mentioning you here )

To truly grasp the meaning of learning to KAN KAI YI DIAN

Precede

So this is why first impressions formed will always stay and stigmatise someone OH WTP

No matter how that one person attempts to change.

Happiness doesn't find you, but created by yourself.

Self explanatory, :)
I can still manage a smile afterall  >:)

OOS

This bag needs to be restocked urgently pretty please :(

Why is it that all the bags that I caught eye on will always be OOS :(

Those times when love's what you hate

Train of thoughts ran through so many incidents.

Friday wasn't spent very nicely :(
Thankfully, I actually leant not to be so Wei Qu easily :/

I detest how during late nights...

Ugh.

" Harboured no intention of doing intensive research on you, it simply appeared on my timeline" >:)

PS I want these shoes so badly!! :(

Screenshot 1 : A/B/C
Shot 2 ; C

AHHH I wanna fulfil post O's ambitions so bad so bad.

Obvious signs of Bipolarism ( if that word even exists)

Till then '

Jingwen @f_lyaways

I thank God for letting me meet you. :)

Happy 18th birthday!!

Though I sparked off some really trivial superficial issue recently.. Thanks for being accepting ( as always)

💙💙

Second Option

Disclaimer: This is not a baseless accusation.
Nor is it an assumption based on my own POV.

I don't presume that I'm being paranoid.

Tbh, it's not about how you went MIA.

Ugh. Shouldn't have done your card despite this hectic schedule.

You don't even appreciate me as an individual and as a friend.

Whatever.

You held my hand and walked me home

Why did you have to go?

Got distracted by trivial and superficial issues again.

Triggered by cancellation of plans for three consecutive days, for a valid reason ( probably pms >:( )

Extremely guilty to whoever who thinks that I treat them as a second option.

I did not.

what the Milo.

Too weary to want to rectify anything.

Sigh whatever.

As Jermaine has said.

FOCUS.

PS ; Running 4 rounds served as an extremely effective 'take-your-mind-off-studying" method.

Official Last Day

I'm two days late but nevetherless.

I have donned the SN Uniform for 10 years.

Since the day in 2003 [P1] I stepped into the compound, I could vividly recall stepping into the forum area and dancing to the family dance.

Shall not narrate my life story here ( visuals > words) hence.

Let the photo roll explain my S4 journey.

PS; number of frequency each visual appears is not directly related to how important the person means >:)

Hahaha Wtp. G'night

Probably the only person who stays up to wait for replies

Stuck between the nostalgic and the guilt feeling that overwhelms.

Can't help feeling this way.

Trying too hard gets one nowhere

# Don't need an apology for what you all have done

# Don't need approval for what I've proposed

# Don't need a change in tone and attitude

# Don't have to be dependent on you anymore

# Don't need to feel that acute pain of departure every time your name is mentioned

5 issues tugging and weighing me down recently and since almost forever.

Full Moon

Even looking at the full moon the night before reminds me of your blog post dedicated to me

One year ago

It's time.

PS Recurring dreams about you isn't exactly helping.

Happy Sweet Sixteenth Jalene!

Actually doubt that she'll see this post on her own hahaha. But here goes:

Tbh, I haven't been an entirely fab friend ( for all those times I've MIAed etc). Actually there's more but I'm not the main focus.

Thank you for accepting me for who I truly am ( cliche but true).

Love yaaaa. Let's Ace O's together :)

Didn't actually manage to take a picture with her today :( aww and to think I wore contacts...

PS ; I added two more photos to the back after the photo was taken :)

Last Official Week in SN

Time flies. 10 years of education spent in SN, my second home.

Need I say more?

Looking forward to physical geography night study tomorrow with Le no-plate tec gang, which constitutes of Allie Josephine and me :)

On another note, went for HOGC service which touched on stress management and all.

- have to actually believe in myself wholeheartedly ( mind and heart )

- place my focus on the ultimate goal ( not on past distractions such as hurt etc )

Almost impossible to summarise everything here but yup.

Will do more posts after O's I promise! ^^

Best's the enemy of Good

Shall list some happier things here in a desperate attempt to feel better.

Hmm. So. I've been diagnosed ( okay too strong a word) but yeah. Told to go for *further backbone screening at SGH since my backbone's curved at > 5 degree..

Being the worry-sensitive person I've always been. My train of thoughts immediately flew to roller coasters.

Will I even be able to enjoy them in the near future? :/

How is the above mentioned chunk of content even happy-related.

Anyways. Gonna try out Reverse Bungee jumping ( exorbitant price :O ), those crazy roller coasters some day.

& at least. Learn to dance well.

Thank you Jingwen for the song intro.

Learning to hold my head and chin up'